Life has brought more twists and turns then I could have ever imagined. I took some time for myself and am ready to fall back into my plans. Last month I finally received the notice I have been waiting for….I am getting laid off from my job. I was filled with more unexpected emotion then you could imagine mostly relief. My friends and coworkers were upset, as to be expected and quite surprised that I was not. This job has been was a huge chapter in my personal story but at the end it became so dull and endless. It was similar to reading the the last few chapters of a book when you already know the ending, it drags on and on. I started here when I was 19, a lady never shares her age, so nine years later and I am still in the same place. Not literally, I have a different gray cube then the first gray cube I started with. Just mentally. I'm ready to embrace this change and be forced to start my adventure. There are times when I get a little nervous and wonder what I will do but I know all of my thoughts, wants and needs will gather into one central location soon for the my ideal happiness. It really is quite hard to focus on work once you have been given this sort of news. I often drift into a daydream and only return in time for 3:00 coffee breaks. I'm standing on the tip of the diving board, waiting and anxious to jump...the only thing holding me back is time.In an effort to ease the pain of sitting in this standstill I'm going to work on all of my goals.
My first goal is to get back into writing because it makes me happy and helps me center all of the things that I want to accomplish. I am starting to get a little side tracked by some unexpected visitors from the past. So tonight, I am going to start my list. My list will be filled with all of things I want to accomplish by the end of the year. I'm excited to really dig in and find out what is truly important to me. Discovery lies ahead……………….
